"Don't you remember on earth--there were things too hot to touch with your finger but you could drink them all right? Shame is like that. If you will accept it--if you will drink the cup to the bottom--you will find it very nourishing: but try to do anything else with it and it scalds."
I love to write and read good writing. This blog is composed of just that: my poetry, others writings, and/or what i think about what i read and write
Thursday, December 23, 2010
The Great Divorce
Sunday, December 19, 2010
Hogwarts for the Holidays
Saturday, November 27, 2010
Hopes and Dreams
Thursday, November 4, 2010
Plans of War
You are such a clever lie
Cuz I can never figure why
I keep running back to you
Why I do the things I do
I smell the fresh scent of your breathe
But know you merely breathe out death
The trick and scheme is never new
You mask the lie, and hide what’s true
So here is what I’ll do:
I’ll curse the man you’ve built in me
And tear apart each stone building
I’ll run to the nearest open road
And rip off all these shameful clothes
I’ll wait till your memory is gone
As long as the light in the sky lives on
And still I’ll wait just to be found
And until then I won’t make a sound
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
A Widsom Riddle
I need this every single day
My lack of this is why I pray
It holds me safely from myself
In between poverty and wealth
I love it as my major find
Its secrets I try to unwind
Its enemy will bend and bind
And keep you wounded, deaf, and blind
It’s worth a fight and worth a blow
A treasure many never know
It has its limits like the rest
But it will help you pass the test
It goes a long way, that’s for sure
It points you to what will endure
Your love for it will love you back
It won’t deceive and won’t attack
Its praise is shouted throughout time
Both throughout pros and throughout rhyme
It’s virtuous by its own will
Its truest form is humble still
- Castor
Sunday, October 10, 2010
"Moving Mountains"
Argue with angels and they always win
But I don’t know the first thing about love
I prophesize and know all mystery
All living things are opened up to me
But I don’t know the first thing about love
Know the first thing about love
I have the keys to open many doors
Give all my possessions to the poor
But I don’t know the first thing about love
I’m moving mountains and have faith in me
Have faith enough to caste them to the sea
But I don’t know the first thing about love
I don’t know the first thing about love
all other things shall fade away
Love stands alone and still holds sway
all other things shall fade away
Into the ground into the grave
I give my body up into the flames
And never once did I deny your name
But I don’t know the first thing about love
I don’t know the first thing about love
- Thrice
Sunday, October 3, 2010
Teach Me to Pray
So i will sit up on the shelf
While on the shelf, let me see
Others in their misery
So i can help them through their pain
Be someone to stand with them in the rain
Another voice to call on high
For justice, love, a better life
Teach me how to see their hearts
That when one dies, another starts
Old hearts of stone turned into flesh
How theirs and Yours will start to mesh
Give me Your love for desperate friends
To seek You on behalf of them
To beg for mercy and for grace
So they might see Your aweseome face
For when our hearts are fixed on You
There's nothing else that we can do
- Castor
Thursday, September 30, 2010
How God Can Bless
Friday, September 24, 2010
In God's Hands
The way i understand it i have surrendered to God's will in my life. I am not only letting Him direct me, but rather i've climbed up into his arms and He's carrying me to where He wants me to go.
The tricky thing about this is it means i have no control. But the beauty of it is that it means God is in complete control. The same God who created our solar system and every intricacy therein is also carrying me. He knows better than I.
But often times i'll get bogged down with guilt from my sin. What's happening there? I believe an analogy i learned this summer describes it perfectly. Satan is called the accuser. One of his main gimmicks is telling us Christians we aren't good enough for God, and that we need to work harder. He injects guilt when we don't do this. This is like Satan putting a treadmill next to me as God is carrying me. Believing Satan's lie is like getting on the treadmill and try and run to where God is taking me. Imagine how ridulous that would look like. Not only am i not going anywhere by my own effort, but it should be clear that i am going somewhere because is holding me. Before i know it i'm exhausted and discouraged because i can't see past the stupid treadmill.
Here is where God's grace comes back into the picture. Inevitably my hard work, running as fast as i can on the treadmill, is going to give out and i'm going to fall hard. It'll hurt for sure (if you've ever fallen off a treadmill you know what i mean), but i'll just fall right back into God's hands. All i need to do is see it and believe it, and go back to relying on God's strength to get me through this life.
As soon as i start relying on my ability to please God, i'm getting right back on the treadmill.
My only problem now is God's hands are so big and powerful that i can't see over them. I'm doing all i can to peer in between his fingers to see where He's taking me. That's the real adventure.
Sunday, September 12, 2010
Comtemplative Learning - (Smile)
Then lighting flashed. I immediately thought about how cool it is. And how it gives light to the whole world (as far as I can see) for just a second. Yet the light makes known all the secrets of the dark. Truth is in the light. In the darkness is held fears, mainly of the unknown. I think the spiritual world is like this too. Often times I know the truth. But when i'm surrounded by spiritual darkness, it's easy to forget what the truth looks like. But then I see flashes of God that remind of the truth all around me. It's scary but comforting at the same time.
Thursday, September 9, 2010
Journal Article Review for Research Methods
Christopher Randazzo – Philosophy Journal Article Review
“Free Will and the Problem of Evil”
Author: James Cain
Source: Religious Studies, Vol. 40, No. 4 (Dec., 2004), pp. 437-456
Published by: Cambridge University Press
Stable URL: http://www.jstor.org/stable/20008555
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The central problem of this article is to defend the incompatibilism that is required by the free will defense that allows for the problem of evil to arrive out of a misuse of our free will in a world created by an all perfect God. This article is in response to the objection that determinism can be compatible with free will in such a way that God might have predetermined our free will to be exercised sinlessly.
The way Cain goes about this is first to distinguish between three different types of compatibilism—metaphysical, conceptual, and epistemic—and the logical relationship between them. He explains that to say two statements are “compatible” means they can both be true at the same time, thus he breaks down the three types of compatibilism into representative truth statements. At first glance it looks like a complicated proof you might see in a logic and proof class, but all in all he is plainly using symbols to simplify long statements.
First he defines a statement (S) as metaphysically necessary if it is true with respect to every metaphysically possible world, and (S) as conceptually necessary if it is analytically true in each possible world. Likewise a statement (S) is metaphysically possible if the statement is true in at least one possible metaphysical world, and (S) is conceptually possible if the statement can by proved analytically in at least one possible world. Thus “metaphysical compatibility” is when two statements are metaphysically true at the same time. Likewise “conceptual compatibility” is when two statements are conceptually true at the same time. Cain makes the point that if two statements are conceptually compatible, they must be metaphysically compatible. On the other hand, two statements can be metaphysically compatible but not conceptually compatible. Cain practically skips over “epistemic compatibility” as he refers to it as the least plausible type of compatibilism because it is the most complex and includes the most variables.
Based on this point, Cain spends the majority of time talking about his “difficulties” with metaphysical compatibility because if he can persuade the reader that there are simply too many problems with this kind of compatibility, he has no need is expounding upon the other kinds of compatibility. Cain admits that metaphysical compatibilism is the most plausible for the opposing argument, but he is far from convinced. He does this by using typical arguments for compatibilism—namely paradigm-case arguments, conceptual analysis, and Frankfurt-style examples—and shows that they are poor proofs for compatibilism.
I think Cain’s article is true under the assumptions and definitions he uses, most of which I would agree with. But there are so many terms to define and base assumptions made that one can hardly fully agree. Another sense of this article’s “trueness” is that Cain does not boldly say that one side of the argument is true or false. He does not refute the opposing argument as false, but only shows “difficulties,” and he only spends about a page arguing for his own side, which is no “proof” by any stretch of the word.
However, this article is still profitable to reader because Cain is not trying to convince the reader that his thoughts are irrefutable truths, but rather to think through the issue of free will and determinism in a new, hopefully clearer, way.
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Thursday, August 12, 2010
A Word to New Students:
Pray
If God is for you, who can be against you?
When the comforts of this world drift away
When it's sunny with a high of 75
And the leaves of the trees in millions of colors
Cannot cheer you up
When sunsets, sunrises, and wind just makes you cry
Cast your cares on God, because He cares for you
Take comfort in your faith
Comfort in your sufferings
Knowing that God came
Not to bring peace, but a sword
To fight the powers of this world
Powers of darkness and famine
Of riches of fame
Of loneliness
Pray
And have joy
Count it all joy
For climax of this play is grace
This stage's star is perfect
And He brought you into His act
Because He loves
Pray
Friday, July 23, 2010
"It's not the best"
If we asked her why we couldn't have that cereal, or watch that t.v. show, or own that item, or eat that candy, she would tell us, "it's not the best." If the youthgroup at my church was participating in a certain event that my parents didn't want us to go to, my mom would say, "It's not 'what's wrong with it?', but its just not the best."
My mom always wanted the best for us. And when someone like John Piper agrees, it's like
honey on my lips.
In his book Don't Waste Your Life, Piper talks about the right questions and the wrong ones:
People who are content with the avoidance ethic generally ask the wrong question about behavior. They ask, What's wrong with it? What's wrong with this movie? Or this music? Or this game? Or these companions? Or this way of relaxing? Or this investment? Or this restaurant? Or shopping at this store? What wrong with going to the cabin every weekend? Or having a cabin? This kind of question will rarely yield a lifestyle that commends Christ as all-satisfying and makes people glad in God. It simply results in a list of don'ts. If feeds the avoidance ethic.
The better questions to ask about possible behaviors is: How will this help me treasure Christ more? How will it help me show that i do treasure Christ? How will it help me know Christ or display Christ? The Bible says, "Whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do all to the glory of God" (I Corinthians 10:31). So the question is mainly positive, not negative. How can I portray God as glorious in this action? How can I enjoy making much of him in this behavior?
I think this is what my mom was getting at, only not in so many words.
Thanks mom!
Thursday, July 22, 2010
A Tragedy In the Making
Have you ever read something, and immediately thought, "that's me!" This is a passage from John Piper's book "Don't Waste Your Life." where that to me severely. I think it accurately decribes a tragedy in the making that still has a partial hold on my life, but also in the lives of millions in our culture.
"You may not be sure that you want your life to make a difference. Maybe you don't care very much whether you make a lasting difference for the sake of something great. You just want people to like you. If people would just like being around you, you'd be satisfied. Or if you could just have a good job with a good wife, or husband, and a couple of good kids and a nice car and long weekends and a few good friends, a fun retirement, and a quick and easy death, and no hell--if you could have all that (even without God)--you would be satisfied. That is a tragedy in the making. A wasted life."
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
In Honor of Rosamond Herklots
"Forgive our sins as we forgive"
You taught us Lord to pray
But You alone can grant us grace
To live the works we say
How can Your pardon reach and bless
The unforgiving heart
That broods on wrongs and will not let
Old bitterness depart?
In blazing light Your cross reveals
The truth we dimly knew
How trifling others debts to us
How great our debt to You
Lord cleanse the depths within our souls
And bid resentment cease
Then by Your beauty reconciled
Our lives will spread Your peace -- Rosamond Herklots
As i was reading Acts, it is wonderful to see all the different people God uses to spread the gospel. Ananias, Aeneas, Tabitha, Cornelius, Paul (formerly a persecutor of Christians), and Peter (formerly nothing but an unschooled fisherman). Fastforward to today. The hymnal is full of the art of hundred of different poets and musicians. Each author has experienced the life-transforming power of the glory of the greatness of the grace of God! God has used each one to help Christians all around the world preach the gospel to themselves through song!
23 years ago the Lord took home one of His own. Paul said, "to live is Christ, and to die is gain" (Philippians 1:21). If we truly believe that, then 23 years ago today, Rosamond gained. And to this very day, 23 years later, she has no less days to sing God's praise!
Monday, July 19, 2010
The Power of Grace
At a Bible study tonight we listened to John Piper talk about the power of future grace. And by future grace, he means the grace that God has given to us moment-by-moment. And in this grace, Paul tells the Corthinthians, is power. We humans are sinful, weak, and unholy (Rom 3:23, Is 64:6), but God has given us the Holy Spirit, and through Him the power of grace. Grace is what saved from our sinful nature and the punishment of sin (Eph 2:8). Grace is what allows us to resist sin and live a life pleasing to God (Tit 2:11-12). Grace is what humbles us, pointing us always to the giver of grace: God. How can we do anything but praise Him for such a gift.
Sunday, July 18, 2010
Next Chapter: John Piper
This post is a summery of the first lesson of the seminar for Desiring God, and it is the summery of his philosophy of Christian Hedonism.
Christian Hedonism
1. The longing to be happy is a universal human experience and is good, not sinful.
2. We should never try to deny or resist our longing to be happy as though it were a bad impulse but instead we should seek to intensity this longing and nourish it with whatever will provide the deepest and most enduring satisfaction.
3. The deepest and most enduring satisfaction is found only in God. (Ps. 16:11)
4. The happiness we find in God reaches its consumation when it expands to meet the needs of others in the manifold ways of love
5. Therefore: To the extent we try to abandon the pursuit of our own pleasure we fail to honor God and love people... in other words: The pursuit of pleasure is a necessary part of all worship and virtue.
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Image of the Invisible
We are the image of the invisible
Free will is ours and we can't let go
We are the image of the invisible
We can't allow this, the quiet cull
We are the image of the invisible
So we sing out this, our canticle
We are the image of the invisible
We all were lost now we are found
No one can stop us or slow us down
We are the named and we are known
We know that we'll never walk alone
We're more than static and dial tone
We are the image of the invisible
We're emblematic of the unknown
We are the image of the invisible
So raise the banner, bend back your bows
We are the image of the invisible
Remove the cancer, take back your souls
We are the image of the invisible
We all were lost now we are found
No one can stop us or slow us down
We are the named and we are known
We know that we'll never walk alone
Though all the world may hate us, we are named
The shadow overtake us, we are known
Raise up the banner, bend back your bows
Remove the cancer, take back your souls
- Thrice
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He is the image of the invisible God
The firstborn over all creation
For by him all things were created
Things in heaven and on earth
Visible and invisible
Whether thrones or powers or rulers and authorities
All things were created by him and for him
He is before all things
And in him all things hold together
- Col 1:15-17
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So God created man in his own image
In the image of God he created him
Male and female he created them
- Gen 1:27
Wednesday, May 5, 2010
Concerning Concerns about Christianity
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
The Golden Rule and Categorical Imperative
Thursday, April 29, 2010
If i had one wish...
But if i had a million-zillion wishes...*
[not nec. in any order]
1. The ability to read without getting tired
2. Live in a community that goes no further than 15 min away from me.
3. Live in the same state as Corban
4. pizza making skills
5. the candy section of a walgreens
6. a camera
7. garage band
8. blogging skills
*Thanks to Relient K for the Inthperatiun
Monday, April 26, 2010
The Situation
Friday, April 2, 2010
"Via Dolorosa"
Thursday, April 1, 2010
It Must Be Somewhere Else
Monday, March 29, 2010
Friday, March 26, 2010
To My Knowledge...
So i just finished the epistemology part of my philosophy class.
- Rationalism - we gain knowledge from reason
- Empiricism - we gain knowledge from sense experience
My Prayer
I’m trying hard to fall in love with you
Cuz I know you’re the best one to pursue
You’ve given me a reason for each day
Help my heart understand
When my eyes cannot see, I pray
Fill me up with your love
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*I wrote some music to this, but i don't have any recording equipment. One day.
Monday, March 22, 2010
"Meditation"
- He searched for an undoubted truth. So he used the method of doubt. Anything he could possible doubt for any reason, he discarded. This is important to understand, because this is why he threw off using God as a basis for any of his truth. He, as well as I, believed that we know God via faith not fact.
- He discards any knowledge we get from sense perception, because ours senses can deceive us (like how a stick looks like it bends when you stick it in water).
- He discards knowledge from the senses because he could be insane, and imagining everything he sees, feels, etc.
- He discards knowledge from the senses because he could be dreaming.
- He doubts the sciences because they "are very dubious and uncertain" but verifies mathematical truths because they are true whether or not he is dreaming.
- He discards knowledge from the senses because God could be an evil genius who "has employed his while energies in deceiving me."
- Thus he concludes that the mind is more knowable than the body.
- He doubts everything he sees, and so discards it.
- Then he says, "I myself, am I knot at least something... was I not then likewise persuaded that I did not exist... of a surety I myself did exist since I persuaded myself of something... then without a doubt I exist also if [God] deceives me, and let him deceive me as much as he will, he can never cause me to be nothing so long as I think that I am something.
- Thus he concludes "I am, I exist, is necessarily true each time that I pronounce it, or that I mentally conceive it."
Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Philosophers According to Wikipedia
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
Big Break 2010
I feel like I finally understand what it means to be free from sin. Hersh explained that when he called "The Great Exchange." The Great Exchange was when Jesus died for our sins. At that moment, He traded all of His righteousness for all our sin. He suffered the punishment of our sin so that we could experience what Paul talks about in Romans 8:1-2 and II Corinthians 5:21 -
"Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in
Christ Jesus, because through Christ Jesus the law of the Spirit
of life set me free from the law of sin and death."
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"God made him who had no sin to be sin for us, so that in him
we might become the righteousness of God."
There is nothing I can do, even through obedience, that will bring me to a point of being more righteous before God. If there was anything I could that would make me more righteous, then Jesus' death wasn't quite enough. We will sin, but after we sin we should not believe the lie that says we aren't good enough for God to use us. I have heard a few stories this week about how God has used non-Christians to lead others Christ miraculously, and then countless stories from CRU college students this week about how God has worked miracles to open doors and share the hope Jesus has to offer to what will hopefully be hundreds by the end of the week (which I suppose is counting, so ignore the colloquialism used at the beginning of the sentence).
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Living With My Shoes On
Gardens surround the red brick path
And lead me to the charming red door
A welcome mat and flower pots
Implore me to want to see more
I step inside the homiest house
Looking over the loveliest lawn
The cozy couches calling my name
But I choose to keep my shoes on
~
The fireplace cracks and keeps me warm
The carpet is white, cozy, and soft
Chocolate served hot is cupped in my hand
As I hear music played in the loft
My hosts beg me to feel right at home
They’ve made it so I feel drawn
But respectfully I must decline
And I choose to keep my shoes on
~
They show me to their best guest room
They say “stay as long as you want”
A king size bed and flat screen TV
Thousands of books, from Plato to Kant
A room so tempting to say the least
Relaxing, it seems, as I yawn
But I say "no thanks" as I head for the door
Because I’m living with my shoes on
Thursday, February 25, 2010
Barren the Adventurer (2)
Barren had not gone far when he came upon his first adventure. As Barren got close, he noticed another bird doing something to the narrow land, but he could not tell what exactly. He addressed the bird in hopes of passing him without trouble.
“Greetings, my name is Barren.”
“Greetings of the same; it is good to meet you Barren. My name is Christian, but most birds around here call me the Pointless Planter.
“Might I ask what you are doing to the ground?” asked Barren.
“I have this seed I am trying to plant in the narrow land. Nothing has grown yet, but I trust that when the time is right, my seed will sprout.”
Barren did not understand. He had only ever heard of food crawling around to the surface of the land, but never grown. Yet the Pointless Planter seemed to carry with him a wisdom he had not seen in any other bird, so he brought himself to inquire about his mystery.
“Do you know anything about what is beyond the blinding whiteness?” Barren asked.
“Certainly. I’ve been there. Being outside of this blinding whiteness is the most wonderful experience in life.”
“Really, what is it like?” Barren asked excitedly.
“You can see more than only birds' faces; you can see the rest of their beings too. You can see every bird, all the wonderful different kinds. And there are other birds, but different than birds. But this is the best part: we, birds, can fly.”
Barren did not know what “fly” meant, but it sounded wonderful to him. “How can I get to everything you are talking about, beyond the blinding whiteness?” Barren asked.
“It is simple, but very difficult. You must jump off the narrow land.”
“But that is suicide. I will die.” Barren shouted angrily. After the Pointless Planter’s answer to his last question, Barren’s demeanor ran from excitement to resentfully doubtful. Barren passed the Pointless Planter disappointedly. As he passed, the Pointless Planter told him, “You must die to truly live. But if you ever decide to jump off, God will catch you.”
Barren heard what the Pointless Planter said, but he was not listening anymore. He had heard of God before, but knew nothing about him. Saddened that his first adventure left him more confused than before, he continued on his journey to the end of the land, determined to find out what was beyond the blinding whiteness.
(to be continued)
Monday, February 22, 2010
Barren the Adventurer
Once upon a time there lived a group of birds. The land they lived on was very narrow; so narrow that hardly two could fit side by side without one falling off the land. Of course this is what they understood to be death. The other strange part of this land was no one could see any further than right in front of their faces. Everything was like a blinding whiteness. As a result, the only faces some ever saw were those of their family and their close friends. Also, since the land wasn’t very wide, you couldn’t walk from one end of the land to the other, so most spent all of their lives on the same segment of the land.
There were a few adventurers who wanted to go to the end of the land. This meant they needed to meet many different birds and pass them to continue their journey, and if they met a bird who didn’t want to be passed, they would have to turn around or fight to the death. Great stories were told of those who made it to the end of the land, but most of those stories ended with the adventurer disappearing.
One day a bird was born whose name was Barren. Barren lived on the far left side of the land. He had one brother and four sisters, but because the land was so narrow, he only ever saw his parents and brother. Barren’s parents were like most birds’ parents. They caught worms that climbed around to the surface of the land as food, they told him not to talk to birds with voices they didn’t recognize, and taught him the best way to live on the land was never to show your face to anyone you didn’t trust and never to pass people as much as you could help it.
When Barren was past of age of learning to catch worms for himself, he became very dissatisfied with his life. He thought there had to be more to life than hopping around the narrow land and only ever seeing two or three other birds. Barren wanted to know if there was something more than the blinding whiteness everyone was accustomed to. And he heard stories from his brother of famous birds, adventurers, who traveled to the end of the land. So one day, Barren decided to become one of the adventurers.
(to be continued...)
Saturday, February 20, 2010
Time Is More Fleeting Than a Bunch of Ships
Psalm 90 - A prayer of Moses the man of God
Wednesday, February 17, 2010
James' Return
"Today this prophesy is being fulfilled in me as i speak." Everyone in the church looked astonished that he would make such a claim.